I always felt that I was missing half of my body.
Sometimes I do things which I don't even like,
involuntarily.
Also I always fantasized about having a twin. I even
felt someone inside my head telling me to do what I
never even thought of.
One day while checking my files I found a document.
When I read it, it said, to my shock, that I was
born a twin. My sister died a few hours after the
birth.
When I confronted my Mom about it, the whole story
was out. It was true and they had kept it hidden
from me because I was young. And, they didn't plan
to ever tell me.
They also showed me a photo of us taken directly
after the birth. I always felt lonely and now I also
want to die. I feel that my life will never be
complete again. I feel I am alone to face this big
bad world.
Everyday I cry in my bedroom and bathroom. People
say I am too emotional because I don't have any
memory of her. I wish she was here. People don't
understand the pain of losing a twin unless they
have lost one.
Also it hurts more to lose a twin if you never even
remember her. I love her always and am ready to give
up everything to have her back.
Shrishma
Vadodara, Gujarat,
India
